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I was young and desperately afraid that It would happen.

If It happened… It would ruin my life. If It happened, It would be terrifying and awful. I would never survive.

I had to avoid It. I did everything I could so that It wouldn’t happen to me.

Then… It happened.

And It was bad. But It wasn’t so bad.

It was hard, but It didn’t ruin my life. It was terrifying, but only for a moment. It was bad, but not awful.

I survived.

I had built It up in my head so much. My fear of It was far more awful than It was in reality.

Turns out, I was stronger than It. I just never knew It, until It happened.

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Once I was no longer afraid of It… a new It took It’s place. It was truly terrifying.

I was afraid I would do It.

If I did It, no one would love me. Everyone would leave me. Everyone would judge me.

Then… I did It.

It seemed to be part on purpose, part by accident. Life forced me into It, but I also chose it. I knew It was my responsibility.

I had done It, and It was bad. But It wasn’t so bad.

Almost everyone still loved me. Some people left me, but I realized they probably needed to go anyway. Some people judged me, but their judgment only lasted for a moment.

It was hard, but It didn’t leave me lonely. It was terrifying, but only for a moment. It was wrong, but not defeating.

I survived.

I had built It up in my head so much. My fear of It was far more awful than It was in reality.

Turns out, the love of my friends and family was stronger than It. I just never knew It, until I did It.

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